Frustation x Mind Control

One of my acquitant always use to do everything in excess... be it eating food, work out, work, study.
Even his emotional swings were extreme, he will be ecstatic about small pleasure or sometimes extreamly annoyed about trivial matters. I always use to ask him what is reason behind all his peak ups and down and he will always blame it to frustation in life. He will always tell, you won't even able to visualize frustation I am going through. I can understand in frustation people getting desparate about things which they didn't or at least keep sulking for over period of time for not getting what they want. In process loosing their appetite for food,activity etc. But how can anybody say that I eat too much because I was frustated!!

I think underneath frustation lies very weak will power. Will power to curb unnecessary body/mind demands. No will to overcome frustation, in fact using frustation as tool to boost our wrong doing to our body, mind or extreme cases to society.

IPL , Pollard and Contracts

Last couple of years IPL has created buzz which is unparallel to any events in India. Media, people, politicians, businessmen all are obsessed by phenomenon. Mind blogging amounts of prize money, players contract, revenue projections, cost of franchieses etc. caused me forget any poverty do exist in India. At least from electronic, print media report I don't think anybody is thinking about povery, unemployment, water/electricity shortage. Like US, we are also moving towards virtual world, where people are kept happy with bit of reality and lot of more entertainment. Constant Propaganda of non trival issues always bury important one. I think politicians are successeding in it.

Leaving apart about current IPL fight between top guys, let us see zero down to player's contract since exorbitant numbers which Modi discussed are at company level and lets compare something which we can compare at personal level.

Pollard, 22 year west indian got $750000/-!! If we calculate per match fee it's coming around appx. $54000/- If we consider average he bats for 5 overs and fields for 15 overs, so for each over he is getting around $2700. So whenever he fields, bats/balls he earns $450 or Rs 18000/- !!! No wonder he considered sueing West Indies board for not leaving him early from WI-ZIM match. As far as I am concern, I wildest  dreampt of max $200 / hr contract when I was in USA. Even just thinking about $200/hr considering h1, green card gave me goose bumps.

I wonder if I just salute his talent or luck.

Dull Life

It's been few days, I felt like writing something. Routine dull life is causing no particular excitement to body/mind. When brain start to question each of our action, we can consider life is stalled or we have something wrong in head. I feel completely sick and isolated when this stage occurs, thoughts are random, actions are erratic and there is no purpose to life. During this stage you just want to end existence.
Whenever I get into this stage first I look into how I tackle this kind of situations in past, in past I used to exercise to get any cobwebs out of my mind, but heavy exercise looks difficult now a days.
Reading some good book is other good option but headache makes it more difficult to relax.
Listening to good bhakti songs was also one of my favorite.. today also I came across couple of good poems from Tukaram and I started feeling little better..

जेथे जातो तेथे तू माझा सांगाती । चालविसी हात धरुनिया ।।

चालो वाटे आम्ही तुझाचि आधार । चालविसी भार सवे माझा ।।

बोलो जाता बरळ करिसी ते नीट । नेली लाज धीट केलो देवा ।।

अवघे जन मज जाले लोकपाळ । सोइरे सकळ प्राणसखे ।।

तुका म्हणे आता खेळतो कौतुके ।जाले तुझे सुख अंतर्बाही ।।

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हेचि दान देगा देवा । तुझा विसर न व्हावा ।।

गुण गाईन आवडी । हेचि माझी सर्व जोडी ।।

न लगे मुक्ती आणि संपदा ।  संतसंग देई सदा ।।

तुका म्हणे गर्भवासी । सुखे घालावे आम्हासी ।।

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पापांची वासना नको दांवू डोळा । त्याहुनि आंधळा बराच मी ।।

निंदेचे श्रवण नको माझे कानी । बधिर करोनि ठेवी देवा ।।

अपवित्र वाणी नको माझ्या मुखा । त्याजहुनि मुका बराच मी ।।

नको मज कधी परस्त्रिसंगती । जनांतुन मातीं उठता भली ।।

तुका म्हणे मज अवघ्याचा कंटाळा । तू एक गोपाळा आवडसी ।।

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जे का रंजले गांजले । त्यासि म्हणे जो आपले ।। १।।

तोची साधू ओळखावा ।। देव तेथे चि जाणावा ।।धृ.।।

मृदू सबाह नवनीत । तैसे सज्जनाचे चित्त ।। २।।

ज्यासि अंपगिता नाही । त्यासि घरी जो हृदयी ।। ३।।

दया करणे जे पुत्रासी । ते चि दासा आणि दासी ।। ४।।

तुका म्हणे सांगू किती । तो चि भगवंताची मूर्ती ।। ५।।

Inert Elements

When I studied periodic table in school. I liked column of few elements which is called "inert elements".

These are elements which are inert to everything! They don't show any characteristics - alkaline, acidic or don't form any kind of chemical bonding with any other elements.

I marveled these elements. These elements are like my nature, please don't disturb and I won't disturb you as well. But in this world everything is REACTIVE, so it is tough to be remain inert!

These elements wondering in world without getting affected by things happening around them.. I wished we could have able to make ourselves inert -- not affecting our state of mind when we go through emotional or physical turmoil. If we manage to keep brain cells intact without getting into voilent reactions to some events.

कविता- हरिवंशराय बच्चन

जीवन की आपाधापी में
जीवन की आपाधापी में कब वक्त मिला
कुछ देर कहीं पर बैठ कभी यह सोंच सकूँ,
जो किया, कहा, माना उसमें क्या बुरा भला।

जिस दिन मेरी चेतना जगी मैने देखा
मैं खड़ा हुआ हूँ इस दुनिया के मेले में,
हर एक यहाँ पर एक भुलाने में भूला
हर एक लगा है अपनी अपनी दे-ले मे
कुछ देर रहा हक्का बक्का, भौचक्का-सा,
आ गया कहाँ, क्या करूँ यहाँ, जाऊँ किस जा?
फिर एक तरफ़ से आया ही तो धक्का-सा
मैने भी बहना शुरू किया उस रेले में,
क्या बाहर की ठेला-पेली ही कुछ कम थी,
जो भीतर भी भावों का ऊहापोह मचा,
जो किया, उसी को करने की मजबूरी थी,
जो कहा, वही मन के अन्दर से उबल चला,
जीवन की आपाधापी में कब वक्त मिला
कुछ देर कहीं पर बैठ कभी यह सोच सकूँ,
जो किया, कहा, माना उसमें क्या बुरा-भला।

मेला जितना भडकीला रंग-रंगीला था,
मानस के अन्दर उतनी ही कमज़ोरी थी,
जितना ज़्यादा संचित करने की ख़्वाहिश थी,
उतनी ही छोटी अपने कर की झोरी थी,
जितनी ही बिरमे रहने की थी अभिलाषा,
उतना ही रेले तेज़ ढकेले जाते थे,
क्रय-विक्रय तो ठण्डे दिल से हो सकता है,
यह तो भागा-भागी की छीना-छोरी थी,
अब मुझसे पूछा जाता है क्या बतलाऊँ
क्या मान अकिंचन बिखराता पथ पर आया,
वह कौन रतन अनमोल मिला ऐसा मुझको,
जिस पर अपना मन प्राण निछावर कर आया,
यह थी तकदीरी बात मुझे गुण दोष न दो
जिसको समझा था सोना, वह मिट्टी निकली,
जिसको समझा था आँसू, वह मोती निकला।
जीवन की आपाधापी में कब वक्त मिला
कुछ देर कहीं पर बैठ कभी यह सोंच सकूँ,
जो किया, कहा, माना उसमें क्या बुरा-भला।

मैं कितना ही भूलूँ, भटकूँ या भरमाऊँ,
है एक कहीं मंज़िल जो मुझे बुलाती है,
कितने ही मेरे पाँव पडे ऊँचे-नीचे,
प्रतिपल वह मेरे पास चली ही आती है,
मुझ पर विधि का आभार बहुत-सी बातों का।
पर मैं कृतज्ञ उसका इस पर सबसे ज़्यादा--
नभ ओले बरसाये, धरती शोले उगले,
अनवरत समय की चक्की चलती जाती है,
मैं जहाँ खडा था कल उस थल पर आज नही,
कल इसी जगह पर पाना मुझको मुश्किल है,
ले मापदंड जिसको परिवर्तित कर देतीं
केवल छूकर ही देश-काल की सीमाएँ
जग दे मुझपर फ़ैसला उसे जैसा भाए
लेकिन मैं तो बेरोक सफ़र में जीवन के
इस एक और पहलू से होकर निकल चला।
जीवन की आपाधापी में कब वक्त मिला
कुछ देर कहीं पर बैठ कभी यह सोंच सकूँ,
जो किया, कहा, माना उसमें क्या भला-बुरा।
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जो बीत गई सो बात गई
जो बीत गई सो बात गई

जीवन में एक सितारा था
माना वह बेहद प्यारा था
वह डूब गया तो डूब गया
अम्बर के आनन को देखो
कितने इसके तारे टूटे
कितने इसके प्यारे छूटे
जो छूट गए फिर कहाँ मिले
पर बोलो टूटे तारों पर
कब अम्बर शोक मनाता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई

जीवन में वह था एक कुसुम
थे उसपर नित्य निछावर तुम
वह सूख गया तो सूख गया
मधुवन की छाती को देखो
सूखी कितनी इसकी कलियाँ
मुर्झाई कितनी वल्लरियाँ
जो मुर्झाई फिर कहाँ खिली
पर बोलो सूखे फूलों पर
कब मधुवन शोर मचाता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई

जीवन में मधु का प्याला था
तुमने तन मन दे डाला था
वह टूट गया तो टूट गया
मदिरालय का आँगन देखो
कितने प्याले हिल जाते हैं
गिर मिट्टी में मिल जाते हैं
जो गिरते हैं कब उठतें हैं
पर बोलो टूटे प्यालों पर
कब मदिरालय पछताता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई

मृदु मिटटी के हैं बने हुए
मधु घट फूटा ही करते हैं
लघु जीवन लेकर आए हैं
प्याले टूटा ही करते हैं
फिर भी मदिरालय के अन्दर
मधु के घट हैं मधु प्याले हैं
जो मादकता के मारे हैं
वे मधु लूटा ही करते हैं
वह कच्चा पीने वाला है
जिसकी ममता घट प्यालों पर
जो सच्चे मधु से जला हुआ
कब रोता है चिल्लाता है
जो बीत गई सो बात गई।।
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अग्नि पथ
अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ!
वृक्ष हों भले खड़े,
हो घने, हो बड़े,
एक पत्र-छॉंह भी मॉंग मत, मॉंग मत, मॉंग मत!
अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ!
तू न थकेगा कभी!
तू न थमेगा कभी!
तू न मुड़ेगा कभी!
कर शपथ! कर शपथ! कर शपथ!
ये महान दृश्य है, चल रहा मनुष्य है,
अश्रु श्वेत् रक्त से,
लथ पथ, लथ पथ, लथ पथ !
अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ! अग्नि पथ!

Big Bang and Us

In my opinion Big Bang experiment in Genva is second most important man made experience (in terms of device) after landing man on moon. Recreating what might have happen at start of universe is such a overwhemling conceptually itself. Quest of human being to find answers of pasts or predict future needs great mind. I am happy there are societies/countries who pay lot of attention to these kind of experiments. To generate energy or accelarate particles, scientists have build circular tunnel of 27 km which ran across multiple nations! What this experience is about to get tinnest particles present in universe. Commonly people know about atom or we get little more details up to electrons, neutrons, photons. These elementry particles also can be divided upto quarks. Current physics stops here what Large Hadron Collider (LHC) is trying to do is divide quark as well. It might prove curently hypothetical element Higgs boson or God's particle. Scientists are considering this is smallest particle exist in Universe!

On backdrop of human nature to find unknown intriguing, at the same time news about human sacrifice in my state Maharashtra for baby doesn't make sense. At one place man is trying to become God to answer our existence while blind faith is causing human to kill harmless innocent kids. We need to somehow channelize faith of later society to better their lives.

Malik Ambar

Being born to parents from Satara region, where people are extremely proud of their lineage. Until my end of college days, I was also extremely proud of past glory of 96k maratha clan. There is nothing wrong in it since region is paradise considering unique beauty of Sahyadri, major rivers like Koyana, Krishna and almost 200-300 years of glorious history of Maratha empire. More I read about history and being born in good family is just chance (or luck?) I started to accept greatness of  historical people (other than Chatrapathi Shivaji)

One of name I would like to take is Malik Ambar. He was child slave from ethopia (North/East Africa). He got sold 3 times before coming to Deccan. Later in nijamshahi he became a prime minister of Ahmadnagar. A black habashi (people from central ethopia) person becoming prine minister of Deccan region! I just can't imagine valor of this person.

I liked this person for couple of reason
1.  He kept powerful moguls away from Deccan. He was inventor of guerilla warfare in Deccan Region. First time he used farming marathas and trained them guerilla warfare. Shivaji's father (Shahaji) helped him assembling and training marathas. In my opinion this was ground work for Shivaji's guerilla warfare. No wander Shivaji used it effectively since he doesn't have to reinvent it.

2.  He build and architect new city called Khadki (now  Aurangabad ). He made it capital. He not only build great architecture for city but also water system (neher system). Today also it is considered as a miracle. Since Khadki (Aurangabad) didn't had dam and because of hard rock couldn't construct columns for ity.
So he used subterranean water from mountainous elevated valleys in north. He manipulated that water to get constant supply of it to 7 lakh people.

He was actively fighting war even if he was 80 years old. I think he was instrumental for building maratha nationality.